Monday, February 22, 2010

Climbing Mt. Mahagony

My friends and me enjoy doing rather random things, as you will learn as this blog progresses. One such random thing we did came to be one night around 8 at night because we were bored and had nothing to do. We were maybe 14 o 15. It was around summer time i believe and my best friend cam and me decided to climb Mt. Mahagony. Its at the enterance to AF canyon on the right side. So we grabbed a couple other buddies of ours, road our bikes up there in the dark, ditched our bikes in some bushes and started climbing.

It was a pretty fun hike, well for what we could see with our head lamps. The trail follows the cliff legde and its a good fall as you got higher and higher on the trail, so we were for the most part carefull haha, the first fun thing we came across, was a rattlesnake that was coiled up on the side of the trail, we didnt want to wake it so we just walked on by as I poked it with a stick. It woke up attacked the stick, me and the other guys giggled and we continued on. We got to the top of what we thought was the trail about 2 hours o so later, and decided to make this our place for the night. We pulled out our sleeping bags set them up drank some water and fell asleep.

We woke up the next morning and decided to look around. Well we were pretty happy that we had stopped where we did because about 5 feet away from us was were the trail stopped. And by stopped I mean there was a good 200 foot fall down the side to a nice and rocky bottom. So we were happy about our choice of place to sleep. We didnt bring much food and we had eaten most of it, so we decided to run down the face so we could get home and get food. We started cruizen down the trail when I put on the brakes and stopped. Cam was in front of me and had jumped over what he thought was a stick in the trail, which actually was a 6 ft rattler streching out for some morning rays. Normal people would of just let it go past but nah we dont do that, so we all tried to catch it! It went under a rock, we almost had it once but we decided to let it go. We went down a different way then we came up just so we cold see what was around there, we found no trail, but it was still fun going through trees, finding a cave where a mountain lion was staying and found someones mag light they had left for us to find. It was a way fun spur of the moment trip! And those kinds of trips have always been my favorite.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Car Washes Are Cold

My story today takes us back to a time of sillyness when Mont was a little crazy. And no this wasnt 5 minutes ago. I'm still crazy and love doing "stupid" things.



Taylor, Me and Reece were coming back from swiming one day. This was like the week before I left on my mission. During that summer we tried to go swimming almost everyday, we did a lot of Mt. Biking and just did a ton of outdoors stuff. It was one of the funnest years of my life. We made tons of movies and just had tons of fun.

One day coming back from swimming in Tay's land crusier that we were borrowing for the summer from a guy in our ward, It started to rain, we were just getting off the freeway and it started pooring on us. Which was so lame! lol, but as we drove past our friendly neigbhorhood gas station, we looked at the car wash looked at each other, ran home grabbed the camera and headed back to the car wash.

Now many of you are probably thinking we are retarded for taking a land crusier through a car wash without the top on. Wouldn't that ruin all the inside of the car? Well we do think sometimes and thought of this and the cool part about this particular crusier is that the owner had taken everything out that could get ruined by water, mud, dirt and so on and replaced the whole inside with rhino liner. So whenever he took it out diggin o anything like that afterwords he would just spray the whole inside out.

So we walk into the gas station ask for a car wash and the girl at the counter gave us the "are you serious" look. It was funny, she gave us the ticket we drove around to the car wash enterance, and tried to figure out a way to set up the camera so it wouldn't get wet and would be able to catch the whole thing. A little red head kid was walking by at the time, so we asked him to stand there and push the little red button when we got back to the car and started the wash. He "did" and we started screaming as we were being blasted with cold soap hard water and so forth, it was actually pretty fun. The little kid at the camera was laughing his head off and there was a line of 6 o so cars behind us that had stopped to watch what was going one. Now we did the full car wash, so we got pre-soaked, soaped, washed like 4 times, soaped again, then washed again, then powerwashed, and then waxed. I highly recommend the closing of ones mouth if they are to do this. The wax wasnt as bad as we thought and it left us nice and glowey. The dryers sucked! They were so hot and blowey!

Now we finished the wash much to the delight of the smallish one that was filming us, thanked him and made some after show commentary. We got back to Tay's house turned on the camera and much to our dismay, there was the begining commentary, the end commentary but no middle. The little small one forgot to push the button and we had no proof of our really smart idea. Now the smart thing to do would be to hang our heads up high and know that we did it and no one could take that away from us. Sadly and really awesomely we are not those kinds of people! So we head back to the same car wash ask the same cashier for another ticket got the same look and laugh and went on our way. This time we pushed the button ourselves and made sure it was on. And we now have some dang funny film! I showed it at my Mission Farwell party and it was a huge hit. That and my grandpa who is a huge car buff trying to figure out what we were thinking.

So moral of the story, if thou desire to make funny video of car wash washing, do not ask passer byers to push little red button.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Hunting




So for those of you who may not know I love hunting. From the months of September to the end of the year that is what I'm usually doing. I love hunting anything I can. I'm the redneck surfer boy as my mom calls me. lol. Even if I dont get anything, I still love just being out and about in the mountains, most of the time in places people dont really know about, Or would want to hike to. The hunt I'm gonna talk about today was my first Antelope hunt. It was about a year before I left on my mission. The hunt itself is up in Wyoming, and before we started just drawing out for them, we had to drive up to Wyoming at 3 in the morning to get in line to buy the tags. And the hunt isnt for a few months after that. So we get our tags head up to Wyoming on the day of the hunt and we get ready, now hunting of the Antelope is rather interesting. They are really quick, have great eyesight and are most of the time pretty smart. So it takes a lot of skill to bag one of these critters. But its also one of the funnest hunts I ever go on. We set out in our trucks and started looking for them. The reason we go after them in cars and trucks instead of hiking for them is as soon as they see you(now this could be hundreds of yards away) they run. So the purpose of the trucks is to get close enough to get out and chase them down on foot to get a shot. So most of the time they are also running at full speed which is around 40 miles when you get to them. So you have to lead them by about 8 feet before you shoot. Which is also challenging. So we get out there start driving and looking. We spent a lot of the day shooting and missing and getting animals. There was 12 people with us and they all had tags. Well I get up to take a shot at one and as soon as I shoot my scope shifts to the left side....Well crap thats bad I said...I took it off all the way and I was basically shooting without a sight for the rest of the day..Which needles to say landed me with leaving empty handed for the day. It sucked. Well that was the last time I was able to go before my mission and I didnt get to go again till last year. We get set up head out there and first we went to a different area to go after the 6 buck tags that we had. And boy did we have fun. We had one buck that my bosses son shot and missed turn and walk within maybe 10-15 feet of us. I call those kinds, animals that God wants dead. Mainly because they are like stupid people...We ended not being able to fill all the doe tags for the day, I think out of again 12 tags total we filled all but like 4. So we went out again about 2 weeks later and had a blast. This time it was just me, my boss, and our buddy Steve. Well we get there, and there is a doe just standing there looking at us. So I get out get a bead on her, and squeeze the trigger. Well I shot about 6 inches below her. Suck! So we kept moving along and moving along whinging shots at does far away just for fun. I was starting to lose confidence in my self and my shooting. Mainly because i shot like 5 times and missed all 5 lol. My boss and Steve were starting to worry as well lol...Well we come around a corner at a place were 2 weeks before we saw about oh 250 antelope maybe more. It was a place where we almost hit a group of about 8 as well with our car. They were running down the moutain and cut right in front of us, it was so cool to see! We came around the corner and in the field there was around 15 o so running around. They were all does and were running around so much becuase they were being hearded by a buck. So we try and get close enough and me and my boss had to take one of the harderst shots for me that I've ever taken. 250 yards at a probably 35 mile an hour dead run.




Well I was basically crapping my pants because I couldnt even hit a doe standing up looking at me picking her nose at 100 yards. So i get out of the car try to find a place to set up my gun for the shot, well I have no time whatsoever for that because they are just about ready to run past us. So I just hold the gun up to my shoulder, aim at the first doe, aim in front of her and shoot, Bang! well my boss shot at the same time and dropped one, and my first shot missed. So I racked in another round aimed in front of the doe at what I thought was 8 feet, turned out to only be like 4 and shoot! Well I didnt see her fall so I put in another round and get ready to shoot again when I hear you got her! I look back and I ended up hitting the 3rd doe back..which was good because the 4th one back was a buck and that would of been bad haha. So I lucked out on that part. haha




I ran over to her had to put one more shot in her because the first one want the best shot in the world and it was done. I learned some valubale lessons that day. How to shoot at a running Antelope and also learned how to bone out an animal. Honestly it was like the coolest thing in the world!




En finn Hunting has helped me become a better person and have more respect for the enviroment and the animals that our Heavenly Father has put on the earth for us. Now my friends that are against hunting and dont believe me, well too bad for you because it truely is incredible and through hunting I've seen more things and learned to appreciate our earth more then anyone I know that doesnt hunt. Have a good day and until tomorrow!

Friday, February 12, 2010

Week of Love...and stuff

As we come to the weekend and I probably wont be getting on again till next week I figured I'd talk about this a little bit and let you into Mont's life of dating, or lack there of lol. Valentines day for me is a really hard day...I usually end up spending it alone in my house, Or out with a group of friends and all their girlfriends. I love being around my friends but on this day I'm never really fond of it..luckily its on a sunday this year so I wont feel so bad for just staying inside all day after church lol.

The reason this is such a hard day for me is I've never had a girl friend on Valentines day. And I hate walking around and seeing all the happy couples all the little flowers and everything...I was actually dating someone pretty serious last year(talked about marriage) and when it came to the week of Valentines day, she pulled me aside sat me down and proceeded to tell me that she realized that she never was actually in love with me like she thought she was and didnt want anything to do with me anymore...that was two days before, and that Valentines day was one of the hardest I've ever had.

Now everyone that reads this if anyone ever does and all my friends that know me and know I dont like this day will probably say your time will come just be patient, or dont worry you a great guy and any girl would love to be with you. I full heartedly believe the first. My day will come and when it does I'll be the happiest guy in the world..The later I have always had a hard time believing. Mainly becuase all the girls I've ever expressed interest in run from me at the first chance they can get...I just recently had a girl that I thought I had become good friends with over the last couple weeks find out that I had an interest getting to know her on a more personal level do the high school thing and completely cut all contact with me period. And I will admit that I've had a few girls that did show interest back we did spend time together and then as it always goes they find something wrong or as many of them say you are a great guy, I really enjoy being with you and spending time together, any girl would love to date you and you're the kinda guy I should be with but I just cant right now..Thats one phrase I've never understood. I should be with you, your the kind of guy I want to be with I just cant. And then I see them run off with the next guy they find that treats them like crap and really never cares for them in the first place..

I remember back in high school every year I would have one little crush, I think everyone does that. I wasnt the best looking guy in school and was only popular because I was playing football and was friends with all the popular kids..But when it came to girls I knew that I probably wouldnt ever get the girl I had the crush on. It just never worked for me that way. I always said hi to everyone in the halls that I knew and always took the time to talk to anyone if they needed a listening ear. I remember one day a good friend of mine Stephinie Bullock came up to me at the end of the year and asked if she could write in my year book. She was the girl I liked at the time but knew I could never be with and was a little surprised that she approched me. It was our sophmore year and I remember what she wrote to this day. "Dear Mont. Thank you so much for always saying hi to me in the halls and in class. It always made my day" I read it that night and was curious why she would say that to me so I asked her the next day. She was new to the school and said that it was hard for her at first to get used to it as it is for everone I think lol, anyway, she said that even on her worst day she could always count on me being there to cheer her up with my smile. She was gratefull that I was there to make her feel special and cared for..I didnt know and probably never would of known that me saying hi to people could have such an impact. We became great friends through out the rest of high school. I went home that night and thought a lot about what she said and made it a point in my life to say hi to everyone I could. And I realized that even though most or all of the girls I liked back then, most likely didnt share the same interest, but they always knew that the little goofy football player could always be counted on to cheer them up and be a listening ear. I love being that listening ear and shoulder to cry on for a lot of my friends, but at the same time it breaks my heart..Most of those girls could be with someone that would treat them a thousand times better then they were being treated, but a lot of girls in the good ol state of utah today and probably every wear will settle for the crap they get handed because he has a great car, he's way hot, he is super fit, he makes lots of money, he's way popular. And they will put up with all the crap they get because of these things and all there friends are jealous because of the guy she has. Its helped me to realize a few things. I'm not one of those guys. I'm not the greatest looking guy in the world, I love the car I have but it may not be that huge truck, or tricked out beamer. I've also realized that most of those girls arent even looking for a guy they may possibly spend the rest of there lives with, they just wanna be with someone that makes them look good to their friends or someone to cuddle with that they dont have to worry about hurting later on. I have a really good friend that I dated about a a year and a half ago or so, that right after we started dating started to date some idiot that she herself has said many times sees no future with. My question is why do girls continue to date guys they see no future with? Because you feel sorry for them? Becuase you enjoy the fact that someone really likes you and you dont share the same interest? Now guys do this all the time as well and that also bugs me...If you dont think its gonna work out with a person whats the point of continuing anything? I'd rather stay single then date someone that just has me around because she likes having someone hold her. And after the little vent there we are almost done haha...

I know she's out there...and I wish with all my heart that I was ready for her to come into my life so I could start my life with her, and we could start our journey through life together..I've always been told by my Relationship teacher at church that we marry our best friends. Well who wouldnt you wanna spend the rest of your life with? Someone that you can wake up to every day and act like the 5 year olds that just love seeing friends, I cant wait to look into her eyes and let her know every day how much I love her, and will always be there for her. To just fall asleep in each others arms and just enjoy life together..Now I know it will never be like that always but I've learned from teachers and leaders, and one of the things I plan on doing is writing down everything I love about her, and when those hard times come I can go sit somewhere quiet, and just read those reasons and be able to see her always through the eyes of the savor as he sees her. We are all not perfect, we have flaws and we get married to help each other become better people and reach the eternal goal. Something I cant wait to have happen to me.
I hope everyone that has someone this weekend enjoys there time together, and makes it worth it. I'll be chillen at home or with my family doing what I do best and thats being the dork I am lol. None of this probably makes any sense at all but hey it makes sense to me.. Happy Valentines day to those of you who are gonna go for it. And for the rest of us still looking, dont worry, He/She is out there and is wondering the same thing. But realize one day you will be the happiest you ever have been. That always helps me through the day.

God gave us two ears to hear, two eyes to see and two hands to hold. But why did God give us only one heart? Because he wants us to find the other one.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

A Whole New World




I love performing, wether it was on a sports field or on a stage I just love being out there hearing people cheer you on, or in a stage type clapping and watching your every movement.

The acting part didnt happen till recently, almost 3 years ago. I always wanted to try out for the school plays in highschool but I didnt think I was ever good enough to make one, that and I was super busy with football, rugby and basketball at the time. But I did like to sing and I was pretty good at it. I just needed more confidence. The 3 of us that sang and were on the football team always loved asking coach if we could leave practice early to go to a concert. It was pretty funny.

I sang every chance I could get on my mission and when I got home I wanted to find a way to keep it going, but wasnt quite sure how. When I went to UVU(UVSC at the time) I sang for the Acapella choir there for 2 years. That was a neat experience but I dont know if I'll ever do it again. It just didnt seem to be up to where I wanted to be. Which I know makes me sounds bad, but hey if you want to be good at something you want to make sure you get the best training right?

I was playing rugby at the time for UVU as well and was having a great time with the guys playing on the college level. Which is wow super different! The guys were much more insane and tough and it was fun being able to practice with them. Although I didnt get to see the light of our first game or any games during that season due to injury I still enjoyed being a part of the team. The injury came to be when I was playing hockey with my friends and co-workers that I was ready to head out and do summer sales with. We were playing at Classic Skating, which is a blast lol. But as I was skating down the rink with the puck a little kid on a scooter decided he was gonna cross the court, well he also decided to do this right in front of me. I tried to jump him but when I did he got scared and lifted up his scooter to so nicely of him take out my legs. Well I went to brace myself and I ended up looking down right as my elbow locked and I hit the ground. Now I know it may be shocking to some, but I've never done anything like this to myself before. And holy crap it hurt! I woke up the next morning in so much pain and later learned that I should of been sleeping sitting up, something that would of been nice to know, but hey I didnt go to the doctor so what can ya expect lol The pain never really went away for a few weeks so I ended up going to see my doctor friend that is in my ward. He sat me down did some stuff with my arm and came to the conclusion that I completely tore my rotator cuff out of place. FUN! Basically my shoulder will never be the same and it put me out of any kind of physical contact sport for a while. Well that was lame so I asked him what I could do to get myself back into playing shape again, he said just find something to keep you in shape and start working out little by little. As a waiter dealing with that and the pain sucked! but a couple of the waitresses that I worked with had recently tried out for a show down at a theater in provo called Center Street Musical Theater. They came up to me one day and wanted me to come to a rehearsal cause they needed more guys. So I though hey why not. I went down on the night of the rehearsal expecting to have to audition which I really wasnt excited for at all. But when I got there they asked me what my range was and handed me the music and I was now a part of the Pirates of Penzance crew. Little did I know that, that night would start me acting career I guess you could say. Also I had no idea how time consuming rehearsals could be lol. Long nights of dance, music, and blocking to put together a show. I had never really watched plays before, the only one I did an ex that I dated took me becuase her mom got us tickets to go see the guy she had set Aimee up on a date with while we were dating. I told my family and they were excited and chuckled a little at the thought of me doing choreography and things like that. To be honest so was I, many of my friends in school at the time were dancers and I made fun of them all the time. Now I'm doing basically the exact same thing. The cast and the show were a lot of fun. I was first assinged to play a pirate, and half way through rehearsals I was also made a police officer for the second act of the play. Those were way fun roles. I remember being super nervous opening night for the show and for me in general in the theater world. The runs went very smoothly and the show was a great success. I never really had any intention of audition for another show after but I was asked by the owners of the theater that I go to call backs for 7 Brides for 7 Brothers. So I did, they called me back for a brother but in the begining I made the show as a sutior, I was highlway thinking about dropping out because the show required lots of work for the sutiors only being on stage for maybe 10 minutes of a almost 2 1/2 hour show. I was at work one day thinking if it was worth the gas and drive time, when I reveived a call from the directors wife. She told me that there was a good chance one of the guys that was playing a brother would be dropping out due to taking another job up in Colorado. They asked me to take his place as Caleb in the show. It was a huge surprise and to this day I thank one of my now best friends Nate for giving me this opportunity. I would say that in this show is were I got hooked on acting. This was one of the hardest shows I have ever done but also one of the funnest. It took more time and effort then any I've done, but I learned so much and it was worth every second. Since August of 2007 I went from doing one show to doing I think I'm up to 18 now. And I've performed in 4 different theaters from this CSMT community theater to the Hale Theater in Orem. In various roles from a backswoods man to playing Aladdin in front of hundreds of kids every night. I've done Christmas shows, summer shows and fall shows. Now CSMT has been shut down for almost a year and while the theater itself is gone I will never forget the Grooms or what they did for me and so many others in Utah Valley. They are such an incredible family and gave so many people including myself an opportunity to go from never being on a theater stage before to performing in one of the top notch theaters in Utah. They always threw random and crazy things in front of me(being asked to join the B&B cast 3 weeks into the run of the show) but as I look back on it, it was all for my well being as a performer. Ive had some of the craziest moment in my life in theater and some of those memories I will take with me for the rest of my life. Thank you Gavin and Sharaliyn for everything you taught me and for all the wonderfull times you gave me. I'm donig a show right now and while its not one of my favorite shows I've really enjoyed playing the villian. I will be trying out for a show in a few weeks and I'm pretty stoked to see how it goes. Theater is now a part of my life and I look forward to every moment and every role I get. I've made some life long friends and I've been told I've changed the lifes of so many people.....I hope anyone that comes and sees one of my shows enjoys a great experience and will have a different look on theater life.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

One Step Closer To Working at Sea World


Another post from the past lol. Well this one I've wanted to write down for a while so just deal with it!


Last Feburary, Me and my current girl friend at the time had talked about getting married sometime later in the year. We were both extremely happy and had starting going out and looking at rings. She gave me an idea of what she wanted and I had started looking on my own to find the perfect ring. She was thinking of going to China for the summer and I had planned to propose after she got back, Or if she didnt get into the program I would propose during the summer and we would get married during the summer sometime.


Well the week of Valentines Day she called me up and wanted to talk, so we get together go out and get some lunch, but it just felt really weird like something was wrong and this was normal. She mentioned taking a drive up the canyon so we did and when we got to the lake we kinda just sat there for a few moments before anyone said anything..so I broke the ice and was like whats wrong? She then proceeded to tell me that she thinks she was never really in love with me and wanted to break up...kinda heart breaking to have the girl you love and want to be with tell you that....The ride home was definatly a long one.


Well I was taking it pretty hard for a few days that one day I finally decided I needed to get away from Utah for a few days. So I called up some friends and asked if they wanted to take a road trip. We got 5 of us together and decided to go to Cali, and Of course go to Disneyland. We set everything up and it all kinda just fell into place. It was really nice. We left about 2 weeks after. The trip down was way fun and hilarious..We finally got to Cali about 9 hours later super tired and excited. Got to our hotel which was about 5 minutes away from Disneyland. We enjoyed three days at Disneyland(it had been about 5 years since Ive been back to my home town. On the 4th day, I didnt really want to go to Disneyland again, and I wanted some time to myself to think about my ex and where i wanted my life to go next. So I got in my car and drove to San Diego to one of my favorite places in the world. Sea World! I love that place. I could easily spend days on end there. Kinda one of the reasons I wanna work there thats for sure. I feel at home at that place, I dont know why but I really do. And it was nice just be by myself and think about a few things, clear my head of the ex and just be in a fun place. I had tried years before to get into the dolphin program there and was unable to due to the fact that during the summer they are booked solid for months, but this was march so why not give it another shot right? So I walked into the office area where you sign up for the class, hoping I could get a spot. Well they had set up a new program about 4 years earlier that was called Wild Artic encounter. I gave it a looksy and decided that was the one I wanted to do.


I didnt have to be there till around 4 and it was only 1 so I walked around the park some more saw some shows and just kinda chilled. The time eventually came and it was amazing! They took us behind the scenes of the whole Antartica and Wild Artic exhibits and we got to see lots of critters. We stopped at the Walrus exhibit first and got to feed them and play with them for a bit, then we went back to were they keep the Polar Bears and watch one of the trainers feed the male and then the female. WOW! I knew they were big but seeing them from about 2 feet away was just incredible..I still really wanna ride one. Then we met some seals and then went to put on the gear to kinda keep us warm in the 50 degree water. We jumped into the pen with the whales and dang it was cold...im sure some body parts disapered for a bit during this time....The whales came over and it was such a cool experience to be able to interact with the whales. They taught us a lot about them and let us hold and swim with them(if we wanted to) and we spent about 45 minutes a piece with both of the whales. They let us teach them some tricks and they spalshed us with the freezing water..Being there that day made me realize even more how much I wanna be a trainer there..The trainers there even asked me if I've thought of doing something like that because the whales seemed so comfortable with me, and thats what they look for in trainers. So I cant wait to pursue that career someday. When the time is right!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Tribute to Girls

In Comemoration of Valentines Day I thought I'd post a post I've had on my FB page for the last little while.

This is my tribute to the girls who are overlooked, who become friends & nothing more because it must be that they are doing something wrong.
This is for the girls who DON'T want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug & supportive audience for a story they've heard A THOUSAND TIMES.
This for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect & that the guys they're interested in aren't either.For the girls who flirt & laugh over the slightest glance, whisper, or touch because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe, just maybe this time he'll have understood.
This is a homage to the girls who laugh & do it often, who are comfortable in skirts & sweats, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention.
This is for the girls who have been in trenches, who have watched other girls time & time again fake up & make up & mess up the guys in their lives without saying a word.
This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning & have heard the right words of advice from, "there are plenty of fish in the sea", to "time heals all wounds"---because it doesn't.
This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.
This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on, for the girls who have sought a night with friends & been greeted by a night of rude catcalls, explicit invitations and that they'd rather not have experienced.
This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages or aim profiles, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have TIME & TIME AGAIN dropped their male friend HINT AFTER HINT AFTER HINT, only to watch him chase after another girl, the first girl in a skirt.
This is for the girls who have been told that they are TOO GOOD or TOO SMART or TOO PRETTY.Who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.
This is for the girls who have been led on by words & kisses & touches, all of which were either only true for the moment or never real to begin with.This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head & heart, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over "her", or he's just not looking to be tied down.
This is for the girls who believe the excuses, because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.
This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken, & their hopes dashed, by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place.
This is for the nights spent dissecting every word & syllable & inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home feeling alone.For the nights when you've seen from across the room, him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near or talking a little too softly for the girls he's with to be a random hookup.
This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized, that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship it was that he didn't want you.I honor you for the night his dog died, or got a speeding ticket, or when he crashed his car, you held him; thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his hand in the right way, then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had.
This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, & the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended.
This is for never realizing that when you choose friends you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep.
This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful & intelligent & amazing & loyal & truly worthy of a great guy.
This is for the despair you all felt, as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that, that night, the only companionship you'd have was a pillow.
This is for the girls who have been used & abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something.
This is for the nights you believed that something was better than nothing even though his something was something you would never want.
This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little & who have learned never to expect anything more. For the girls who don't think that they deserve more because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.
This is what I don't understand, us men sit & question & whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them & belittle them & don't appreciate them & don't want them.Us men complain that we will never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested & compelling who are intelligent & sweet, smart, & beautiful. We despair that no good women want to share in our lives, that girls play mind games, that girls love to keep us hanging, yet, I have to ask:

Are we to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrilling, compelling, intelligent & sweet and beautiful & smart girls, are we to give her our number & wait for her to call, & if we were to receive a call from her the next day, & she in her truthful, loyal, intelligent, and straightforward nice girl fashion were to tell us that she finds us intriguing & attractive & interesting & worth her time & perhaps material from whichs she could fashion a boyfriend, would we not immediately call our friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" we met the night prior, who called & wore her heart on her sleeve, & told the truth? & would we not refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again & once again return to the party scene & search once more for this "nice girl" who we just cannot seem to find?Because there in lies the truth.Nice girls are everywhere, but maybe we are not looking for a nice girl, were not looking for someone genuinely interested in our intermural basketball game, or our anatomy midterm grade, or that argument we keep having with your parents.Maybe were looking for a quick fix.A night when we can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as quick as the night its self.Perhaps we shouldn't say were on the lookout for a nice girl, when we pass her up on every step we take. When she is sitting right in front of us....

God did not want us to have this bonfire


I'll start off with what happened to a group of us over the weekend. We have been planning for a long time to have a huge bonfire. And by huge we mean one that would require us to aquire(through whatever means) as many Christmas trees as we could. Well I was never able to help out pick them up, but we ended up with something like 130 trees.

I had a show during the afternoon so i wasnt available to help set up the trees but when i got out there the trees were all nicely set up in a 30 foot circle. I asked why we hadnt started yet, and aparently a Police Officer had showed up and said we would all go to jail and be charged a 1000 dollar fine if we burned those trees. For reasons that made no sense to any of us. Especially since we had permision from the city to have the fire. The officer then told us that we had to clear out the tree or we would be charged a 250 dollar fine per tree. Lame! Its 11 at night and he wants us to get rid of the trees. Well the guys asked him if we could have some time to clear them out and he gave them till monday morning to do so. We ended up having a good time anyways with a sissy fire, made smores played some games and so on. On a side note i was quite stoked that my new little honda made it out there with no problems at all.

Most of us got home around 3 or 4 in the morning so waking up at 9 to head out there wasnt the ideal desire of most of us, but we sucked it up and did it anyways. So Chase, Taylor, Me, Cody, Adam, Ben, Willy, and Derik set out to the west desert to get the stupid trees we couldnt burn the night before. We get there and suprisingly with a bunch of us it only took about 40 minutes to get all the trees back in the trailers that we had brought down. We stopped after ate some donuts and chilled then got in the trucks and headed home, well a fire that happened the night before that the cops and fire department were putting out was on the way home and we wanted to stop and take a looksy. So Taylor and Myself, and Chase pull off the road onto the road that headed towards the fire, when Tay hit the breaks and yelled oh crap! well we got back on the road and headed north, well all i saw as we headed north was a truck that had rolled on the side of the road. We all thought it was our buddy Cody becuase he was also driving a dodge. Turns out that a truck that was behind us and not paying attention, hit Cody's trailer as he was pulling off the road which caused the other guy to flip his truck. It was insane! Even though I wasnt in the truck that was hit or the truck that rolled it was still a scary moment for me. We could of been dealing with someone that was seriously injured and needed to take action.

Luckily no one was hurt just a little freaked and we were all able to deal with the situation. The guy that hit the trailer was nice and sorry for not paying attention. His truck was a goner and so was the trailer. When he hit Cody he sheered off the trailer hitch completely and we still have no idea where it went. So after the cops came and checked out the damage Chase, Me and Tay headed to dump the trees. All in all it was an insane weekend were we still managed to have some fun.

First Blog

Well howdy everyone. I finally caved in and decided to start one of these things. I never really know what to write about, but I always have old memories of me, my friends, and my family in my head so I figured why not write about that right? Also i figure in this first post I should tell you peeps about me some. Well I'm the oldest of 3 kids, I have two younger sisters. Megan, and Mandi. Megan is 21 and Mandi is 15. We all have Bdays in July except my dad. And all within a week of each other. Kinda weird. We are totally random and have some of the funnest moments ever!

I hope through this blog you can get a little better idea of what its like being me(which could be really scary) and enjoy some of my life stories and events. And just enjoy hearing about my life as much as i have about all the blogs I've read in the past. Enjoy!